My husband and I have recently faced quite a bit of uncertainty. Right at the time we were praying fervently about greater financial freedom, several opportunities were thrown our way. It had been the desire of our heart to be more generous with our finances because when we looked at our monthly income and expenses, it seemed all we were able to do was provide for ourselves. With a kingdom mindset we knew this is not God’s call for our lives. He wants us to give and to give abundantly.
So month after month we gave from little, trusting that God would break the cycle of worry over our finances and provide greater opportunity for giving to others in need.
Around this time of faithfulness , my husband Anthony interviewed for a new job, and we had several random interests in buying our home. One of these opportunities would increase our income and the other would decrease our financial commitment to provide for ourselves. It seemed that God was answering our prayers. With great excitement we began to make plans because we knew we were praying within God’s will, therefore, we clung to his promise of 1 John 5: 14.
“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of him.”
However, as plans began to take uncertain turns, Anthony being called through another round of interviews and our home appraising for less than the buyer’s offer, we faced doubts. We became uncertain that God would provide what we desperately asked for. Was God going to arrange everything perfectly as we hoped? Was he going to miraculously show up and allow us to free ourselves financially, so that we might bless others? We know it is God’s will for us to do so, so why isn’t he providing it? We weren’t quite sure. Things weren’t panning out as we hoped.
As uncertainly swarmed around our minds and hearts, and disappointment and confusion strangled our joy, I became comforted by the Spirit through God’s Word. How great is our God to do that? To reveal new truths through his precious word?
Paul writes in Romans about God’s faithfulness in Abraham’s life. Abraham, an old man, was promised by God to be the father of many nations with numerous offspring. But as he and his wife approached old age, it would seem that perhaps God wasn’t going to fulfill this promise the way Abraham thought. I know my thought process during this time would have been, “Well, maybe God is going to have us adopt. Maybe God wasn’t being literal when he promised to give me offspring. What else could he have meant?”
But that’s not what Abraham did. He didn’t doubt God’s goodness, his promises, or his faithfulness. God said what he meant, and he meant what he said. He promised offspring, and Abraham clung to it, even when it seemed the opportunity for God to fulfill the promise had passed.
“Yet he did not waiver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.” Roman 4:20-21
You see, God didn’t fulfill his promise to Abraham in the way Abraham probably thought he would. No, God showed up in a big way, in a way that brought the most glory to him. He gave Abraham and Sarah a baby when physically it shouldn’t have been possible. And even though God didn’t fulfill his promise to Abraham in what human minds might have thought was reasonable, Abraham remained in belief, “fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.”
We are in a place of uncertainly today. We aren’t sure how God is going fulfill his promises to us, but I choose to remain prayful that He will, and that he will in a way that brings him the most glory. It may not be on my time table or in the way that makes most sense to me, but I am praying through the uncertainty for God to show up in big and mighty way. And I am praying that I remain faithful in my belief that I might be strengthened in my faith.
Hoping today that if you know you have been given a promise-a promise from God for release from sin, a promise from God for his will, a promise from God for provision-that you won’t be bogged down by disappointment and uncertainty. As Abraham, may we remain faithful and trusting of God’s power, that he will provide and he will come through in a way that brings him the most glory.